Thoughts on the last few posts

I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder in 1994.  That was eighteen years ago and I have spent a lot of time thinking and listening to other people talk in my head since then.  A lot of what people say to me in my head is really negative.  I hear people's contempt for me all the time.  And it gets really tiring.  I hear people say horrible things to me about how awful I am.  And I get really upset sometimes and start yelling at them about how horriblet hey are and how awful they are. 

I don't know how much of what I hear in my head is actually telepathic-  I hear what people are thinking and people are listening to me and judging me. But it really doesn't matter because I am hearing it and that is a reality in my ind that I have to deal with.

I think for me the best antidote so I don't lose all my happiness to these hateful people in my head-  whoa re usually associated with people who I think are stealing from me or stalking me or even people I know is that I try to be satisfied with what I have and just accept that some people don't like me.  But there is n o guarantee that they are going to stay aheadof me in this life or the next.  And there is no guaranteet hat they won't overcome me and I'll go thell and they will win and go to heaven and be vindicated that they were actually right.  Subhana Allah only Allah knows what is going to happen to any of us.

I have to just say la ilaha il Allah and let go of it.